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[Apr. 2nd, 2006|01:52 pm] |
So its now april... i haven't written in this thing for a bit most recent updates, i am no longer fucking up in school, and i am no longer single, thats right girls but he's off the market i am truly sorry actually i'm not at all i have never been happier i mean it does suck at the fact that she's literally 100 miles away but a week from today i'll be with her and i can't wait... Bethany told me isn't it ironic that you said you were going to albany to meet all these girls and finally find the right 1 and then you come to find that the right one has been in carmel right under ur nose the entire time. so then i looked up the definition of irony to fnd that she was right.thats my love life and i love her.
My family/home life not so good i ve been used as so many people's krutch that i just ended breaking realizing that in the long i'm there for everyone to find that inturn there's no1 there for me... i mean im not complaining i dont mind helping or giving advice and i wont stop as long as i can help... but other than that life is starting to get back on track and spring break is in 1 week and i cannot. |
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| Back in albany |
[Feb. 25th, 2006|08:27 pm] |
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ok so it's saturday the last day of my break and instead of spending it with my girl back home i'm watching my sister and her boyfriend make out on the couch. I had the best week of my life and just because i had to be a good son and let my drop me off early, i miss out on an extra night with her.. watever wats done is done... i cant wait to hear from her later... i miss her so much. |
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| Oh I Think They Like Me... |
[Feb. 10th, 2006|06:56 pm] |
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Ok so finally some good news in my life: 1. PIcked and intended career- Cop (specifically NYPD)
1a. picked a major: both criminal justice and sociology
2. found out that this girl that moved to paris had feelings for me
3. all that bullshit wit that girl from school resolved
(currently we are not talking which is really good)
4. A friend is visitin me tomorrow very excited
5. i said i was gunn a do it and i did i tried out fr a
talent show (DOING COMEDY)(Schwenk don't worry i'm not
making fun of myself) and i got a slot in it, the show is
sat. March 11th
6. finally relized girlfriend to much work so im solo for a bit
7. its FUCKING FRIDAY and i'm getting trashed
Just figure i would give an update. |
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| Faster Than A Speeding Bullet? |
[Jan. 9th, 2006|01:44 am] |
hey ok so i said i had alot of shit on my mind and i still do, lately ive been feeling empty, unaccomplished , and alone. I can't wait to go back to school but the thought of not being able to see my friends pisses me off. im feeling lost with no direction or path towards the future. my home life is in shambles and my love life is just as bad. Are are girls fucked up or just the ones i meet? i mean the one at work plays this mind fuck of game with me and the one from school is just as bad. But i think i figured out the rules to the game and it involves me switching from nice guy to a total and complete unattached asshole. right the girls fall for the assholes and over look the nice guy. is that the solution? (any opinion is most welcomed)
So im headed to kennedy on tuesday (my day off) to see if i can finally find the sense of home i've been looking for that or play a few gym clases and demolish some under classman to build my self esteem (i'm just kiddin).
The Giants also lost in the first round of the playoffs today and for everyone who say they suck i say fuck you at least they made it to the playoffs; I don't see your precious Jets in the playoffs so in short go fuck yourselves NO JET FAN HAS ANY RIGHT TO TALK. This loss does disappoint me but ill get over it.
Side Note:
I've been workin on my comedy acts and when i return to albany in 2 weeks i'll be searching for open mic nights. wish me luck and hopefully when the time comes i won't suck. |
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| Why Must I Play Hero |
[Jan. 5th, 2006|03:08 am] |
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SO this is my first entry on live journal and there has been alot on my mind latley. Before i get into that a little introduction is order. The name's Rolando, or Rol or R-Money( gangster name given my DougEFresh. i started this not for attention but for away to get everything thats been bottled up inside of me out. So here i go:
In the past couple of days I've discovered what my role is in my family one word Hero i feel that i must i take everyone else's pain away and place it on myself and causeof this i make it so that i can never be happy. in this 2 day revealation i also found that i have been clinching to the past and making it extremly hard for me to move on into the future i had so much in highschool, good friends, i was pretty well- Known, and it was just a good time but my football coach (Poval) said it best i don't really miss highschool i just miss the familarity of it. I have come to relize that my football days are over no matter how hard i work out or try UA's football team is not within my reach. I'm ok with this and im still going to continue to work out.i also relize to let go of the crushes i had in highschool. if i let go but not forget the memories i can move on.
I also decided to try to make peace with my father ( for those who don't know he is the biggest dick in the world because 3 years ago he pushed my siblings and I put of his house so he could live his own life.)i know he'll never fucking care he'll snd he'll never be proud of me but i figure wat the hell if there are no arguments then there can be no damage.
There's alot more i want to say but its 4 in the morning i have work at 10a.m. tomorrow. my thoughts are scattered and i'm going to bed |
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